You never really think this will be the last birthday card I will get from my friend but in 2006 when we both turned 30 it was:
We will be the big 40 next year and I wish she was here to send me another card like this.
In 2007 I did not receive a birthday card or a phone call from my best friend and it was so odd cause she never missed a opportunity to tell me I was older then her if only by a couple weeks. I tried to call that week and could not get a hold of her.
Then on August 31st 2 days after my birthday I found out why. My best friend had taken her own life and was no longer on this earth when my birthday rolled around. It was one of the worst days of my life. I felt like someone just ripped out my heart and stomped on it!!!
We had been best friends since we were 11. She was my partner in crime and we lived right next door to each other so if we were not together running the woods behind our houses or playing in the ditch we were talking between our houses through our windows cause our rooms were right across from each other.
It still feels so unreal that she is no longer here and I still miss her to this day!!
I just wish I could give her a big hug and tell her Happy Birthday!
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| This was after we went exploring in a cave in TN |
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| At my Aunt & Uncles when she moved to GA ~ |
This was a birthday post I did for her in 2009 and I still love this song and this poem:
Butterflies In Heaven
When we lose our loved ones they never die
For I know once heaven takes their souls
The Dear Lord leaves a little of them here
To turn into beautiful butterflies
So they can be near our hearts
Blessed are those who can see the beauty
Of the life which has gone to what is 'God's Art'
When we look for the angels
They will send us Jesus' love
I saw a butterfly today, my last prayer I gave away
Heaven is more than souls of our loved ones
When a father, mother, a brother, sister or a child dies
Their hearts live in those who have loved them
Every grain of sand, every sunrise and sunset
All the good things we know and love
They all go to Jesus for Him to protect
As a gift, The Lord, lets us have a glimpse of those we love
For a brief moment in time, for a short while
A butterfly is seen at our window, sent from heaven
Then we know, all will be well with those we love.
Linda Ann Henry 2005
http://lindahenry1123.tripod.com
She is always with me!!
Oh wow. Thanks for sharing. Suicide is so tragic. It leaves you with so many unresolved feelings and questions. So sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteThank you :) Some days are better then others but you are right it leaves so many questions and what ifs. I try to focus on all the fun and positive of her life.
Deleteoh my this is beyond awful. My heart is just breaking. I am so terribly, terribly sorry. I also lost a friend to suicide when I was in college. It is just heartbreaking.
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Thank you so much Caren! Sorry for your loss as well. It is very heartbreaking :(
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